The Effects Of Drugs
My Addiction Delivered

The photo above is my dog Kendall. The effects of drugs, I feel through Kendall. I love this guy unconditionally. I say this because of the pain that I feel worrying about him on a regular basis. If he was doing something self destructive such as drugs, that would kill me. This is how I compare what parents suffering over their child and drugs would be. It must be absolutely terrifying.

You are responsible for your children. If you are wondering if they may be using, it is something to stop wondering about and know the facts. Keep tabs on your children you are their only hope when it comes to drugs and alcohol. The link below may help solve some serious issues with your kids and drugs and alcohol.

Click here to go to Mike's Home Drug Testing Site, I was amazed at how helpful this site could be for parents.

Children they often believe they know more than God. I thought I knew more than my parents. I thought I was the man.

Tim, having a drinking problem, you got to be crazy. Don't even mention a drug problem, then you have gone way past reality. Sure I drink and smoke some dope, so do most of my friends. Hey! This is 1970 baby that is the deal these days, wake up old folks.

Hell, most the music they make today is about dope, it's about what is happening these days. A person wants to do dope fine, as long as they don't bother anyone, what is so wrong with that?

My mentality, and I feel safe saying plenty others thought the same way.

What the effects of drugs did to me and all else within the ripple effect.

I started drinking when I was seventeen. Within one year of the first time I choose to drink several things took place.

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The very first thing I realized, it solved my shyness problem. I was able to talk to girls and tell people how I felt. It was as if it brought the real me out.

Shyness is perfectly normal, today I have respect for those with that personality trait. It is a part of you and that is perfectly OK. As a matter of fact that was something that others found to be cool about me. Yes including girls.

If we could just video tape each time we get high you would think that isn't me. But remember you are not functioning normally. You are high on drugs or booze. You may feel good about yourself and confident when you are high, but it is nothing but a big old fat lie. We begin to choose according to our emotions. Fear drove my years of addiction.

Children need to be taught about making proper choices, especially under all types of emotions. I made a choice to drink for the first time, because I was in love and did not want to be a party pooper. If she is gonna drink so am I. Your life your choices does not apply to young kids that are not fully aware of their choices.

It did not take long, within a year of that choice to drink the first time. I began to skip school and drink. Then the effects of drugs began to seek company.

I started to experiment with other drugs. I was really fortunate cause my best buddy worked in a pharmacy part time. He was like me, the sky was the limit.

I was introduced to marijuana within six months after I took that first drink. I did not care for just smoking pot. I enjoyed it much more mixed with drinking.

We would go to the grocery store and drink the booze right there in the booze isle. I believe we call that stealing? We never got caught. Imagine a kid in the booze isle acting like we were shopping for booze. There is something wrong with that picture. You got a kid in there that looks 12 years old, sneaking drinks, in the booze isle. We never got caught, that amazes me. This was the beginning of my criminal career.

The effects of drugs continues

It Was A Snowball Effect

Less school more drinking and drugs. My first two years of high school I had to attend summer school. I did this in order to advance to the next grade.

Then came along a deal that took me out of regular school to technical school. We all thought that was the answer. I hated regular school and this tech school fit me like a glove. I would get a high school diploma and a trade diploma to boot.

I did well in trade school and never missed a day. I did enjoy it. I got to work with my hands and brain. I usually only drank on the weekends and got high. Things were better. I know my mom and dad must have been thrilled, except they knew I drank now and again.

The effects of drugs seemed a part of the past at this time.

It was never permitted in no way, shape, or form for me to drink. My dad was totally against me drinking under age. He was not aware of the pot smoking yet. He was old school and went by the letter of the law.Whenever he found out that I had drank he would take the car and ground me for a short time.

Today, I would lose my privilege to drive for life after four DWI's. Plus you can get prison time after the third conviction in my state of Missouri.Back then the cost was far less but it still added up to thousands of dollars.

You could easily get it dropped to a lesser offense, and the DWI was wiped out. My drivers license was revoked three times, adding up to two and one half years.

I see it on the news today, where a someone kills an innocent victim due to drinking and driving. Then they go on to say he/she had been convicted of DWI'S in the past and are still driving legally. Not a whole lot has changed.

This was only the tip of the effects of drugs on my life and those within the ripple effect.

Before the end of my last year in school I began using several different drugs. I got these through my buddy that worked part time at a pharmacy.

I found speed to be my favorite. I could drink and smoke dope all night and keep going.

I also attempted suicide, taking a bunch of pills from my parents medicine cabinet. It was over my girl friend, but today I realize there were other stings attached. This was not my only suicide attempt.

It is mind boggling the difference between a sober you and a poisoned you. The effects of drugs is something the addict is blind to.

Six months after I graduated I was at a night club and was shot point blank in the gut. I had a couple operations after that due to other complications from the wound.

By the time I healed, in a month or so after the final surgery I was a healthy twenty year old kid.

Went to work doing what I had learned in trade school, air conditioning, heating, and refrigeration. I was still carrying on doing drugs and drinking. Not much changed there.

You would think the effects of drugs might become apparent by this point in my life. That was not ever a crossing thought for me.

I keep mentioning ripple effect of one drug addict.

Look at all the stress and suffering going on because I kept choosing to get high for my sake.

My parent were under such stress, besides watching their child waste away. They had to pay the price many times over for what I was doing to my self.

The financial burden they suffered paying for all the effects of my behavior. They also had to get medical help for themselves due to all the depression and stress. They had to listen to all the gossip from the neighbors, pointing fingers at them like it was their fault. They carried a heavy burden.

Going to court and helping me with legal matters I brought on alone. Trying to figure out how to stop all the madness, not being able to do a damn thing.

Worried about every phone call. Paying for high drivers insurance due to my driving record. Things would go fine for short spells and then it would all start again. Traveling back and forth to doctors and hospitals. Trying to work and get through everyday life carrying this madness on their shoulders.

It wasn't like I could not help it, it was like I did not even care or notice what I was doing to my family. The effects of drugs makes one totally self centered. It is a selfish life style.

It cost people time and money. The police were involved several times, traffic tickets, when I got shot, ambulance service for my suicide attempt and the shooting incident.

My friends and innocent by-standers were emotionally affected. All this came about because I choose to live that type of life style.

There is no doubt in my mind none of these things would have took place, if I said no to drugs and alcohol.

Once a child chooses to use drugs or alcohol they are disabling themselves immediately. The physical and emotional disabilities are put into action. The effects of drugs for me alone causes more pain, effects more people than you can imagine.

One would have to sit down and do the math to figure the average pain and cost. I have never tried to figure it. For me alone it must be a staggering figure. You cannot figure emotional pain on paper. The cost to try to ease that pain of depression and stress must also be unlimited.

The effects of drugs kicks us all in the rear, it's the drug addict that suffers the least. While active on drugs, I never thought of what I was doing to myself my family or anyone.

All the people suffering due to your life style. The emotional pain of your friends and family, the victims of your crimes, if you work your employer suffers getting part of what they pay you for. Plus you put others in danger at your job in many cases. You often make your fellow employee work harder to carry you. They should not have to carry you because you are dope sick, hungover, or high.

You know what, you have no respect for yourself, so how can you give others around you the respect they deserve. It never even crosses the mind of a drug addict. The addict believes they are the only victim of the effects of drugs.

The only time an addict shows respect is if they want something. Their respect is not from the heart, it is an act we preform to continue our addictive ways.

To enable an addict is to take food out of you and your loved ones mouths. Whatever you give an addict in favor of their addiction is just one more punch in your mouth.

Do you see where the effects of drugs hands out the most pain? I believe my family and friends, and the victims of my drug abuse suffered much more than I, the drug addict.

The effects of drug addiction last a life time. It does not just affect the addict for life, it affects all who come in contact with the life style you choose.

The ripple effect of drug addiction. I often see its effects on my family and my small circle of friends today.

This evening on 11/22/2009 my mother thought I was still involved in that life style.

I told her I was going out to play with the dog. This happens to be something I do often. But because it was getting dark it raised red flags in my mothers mind. She was suspicious I was up to no good. I confronted her about her concern. I was very irritated she would act out like this.

I have no room to get upset with her negative thoughts of me. I thought this is no fault of hers it is entirely my fault. To gain back the trust of even the ones who love you the most may never happen. I feel the pain I put my family through. It rips me apart when I contemplate it through their eyes. I may not understand the true level of that pain, cause I have no children. It just makes me sick that I would do something like that for that many years. I punished them because they loved me unconditionally. No one deserves to be put through that year after year.

Never once did they stop loving me. After years of being off drugs and alcohol I am just beginning to see the whole picture. I will do whatever it takes to convince one child to say no to drugs and alcohol, and understand why they are making the best choice of their life.

The effects of drugs will most likely last a life time. It is no different than memories past. There are so many triggers that bring these memories to present.

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